How empty are you, user?

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Explain to me how if you didn't had the Lord you would be truly empty. I never understood this logic or reasoning religious people have.
Well, that must suck for you. Why don't you try to get rid of all the bad stuff in you? Or do these bad things give you a sense of "meaning"?
Well, if you don't find enjoyment in any of those things or basically nothing at all anymore, then yes. But is having a boring life a bad thing? I mean, yeah maybe you will get bored from time to time, but it seems to me and from experience you get accostumed to being bored until you're not bored anymore.
What gives you those little fleeting moments of joy during the day?

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>What gives you those little fleeting moments of joy during the day?
Occasionally theres some food i like or a song or a post i find funny. Not much else.

Would you like to no experience those little moments of joy you get and feel absolutely empty instead?

Ig in a way im grateful for them so no.
I just wish it wasnt like this at all.

But them being this fleeting, doesn't it makes it worse? Or having the expectation or looking forward to experience them again is what you like?
>I just wish it wasnt like this at all.
How would you wish it was like then?

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>wish it wasnt like this at all.
Why? Im like and I thought that was normal and the only way to be. Stop making me feel inadequate. What other option is there?

I just wish my life was satisfying and i wasnt a poor retard is what i meant, wish i didnt have to focus on those moments at all.
Both of the people you quoted are me lol.

> Explain to me how if you didn't had the Lord you would be truly empty. I never understood this logic or reasoning religious people have.
I don't expect you to accept but for me, having seen that the world is full of garbage with little amounts of joy, and I as a man am far from being remotely "good." Well... Lets just say I'm glad I believe in a "Sky Daddy," without Him I would truly feel emptiness in this world. Though I would have been able to continue on without Him, having Him beside me gives me a bit of encouragement.

Take that what you will. I hope my answer was of some satisfaction.

Your ego. You are always the best. You are better then everyone. You don't need to do anything. You don't need to say anything. As long as you look good, it's all good.

I am empty.
I feel like a husk of a person.
Nothing brings me joy any more.

So what is it that you do? What do you think would give you some sense of satisfaction in your life, you have dreams, goals or something like that? You work towards them or not?
Maybe, I guess, you can focus on those moments as a motivator to achieve the satisfaction you're looking for in life. But also, maybe, doing that will just make things worse.
I see. So it's not really some kind of "fear" of god or something like that in this sense for you. Some kind of like aligning yourself with some morals and getting the encouragment by reaffirmation of a greater being, kind of, right?
But hey, you at least know that you're not perfect or delude yourself into thinking you're "good", that's something I respect.
I might not believe in any of that bullshit, such as morals or definition of good or bad deeds, but if it works for you, then that's all it matters.
But let me ask you this, have you never lost your faith in him? Do you believe in some form of afterlife?
I don't know what you mean with this.
I don't get this feeling all that much, there's always a core in everyone, regardless of how deep it is. But, in the past, did somethings bring you joy?

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after i empty these fucking nuts on your face

>What do you think would give you some sense of satisfaction in your life, you have dreams, goals or something like that? You work towards them or not?
I have no dreams or goals im basically just waiting to die because i know im stuck and will never get out. Dont want to explain why on Yas Forums though.

All women are fucking liers. There is no truth in the devil, for the devil is a lie. When the devil lies, it speaks it native tongue.

As empty as I could possibly be. All I do is work, eat, sleep.

>I have no dreams or goals im basically just waiting to die because i know im stuck and will never get out. Dont want to explain why on Yas Forums though

Yep. Me too.

>Why don't you try to get rid of all the bad stuff in you
It's better to be tortured than empty, and people only know that if they've felt both.

>severe trust issues
>constantly question peoples
intentions
>cannot fathom the idea of gf or having sex
>go days without talking to anyone
>cant remember the last time I had a meaningful conversation with someone

I think Im destined to just live in isolation in the outdoors and shoot guns. I dont like people

Sucks it has to be this way for us user...

Were you always like this as long as you can remember? It's fine, you don't need to give details about stuff.
Are you a NEET or shut-in?
Everyone lies to some extend or another, if you let those lies affect you to the point of hating or generalizing this much, then I guess you are not empty and can be filled with rage towards something. Living for hate and rage is also a good way to live for, just to cause the most damage you can out of spite. Wish I could do that.
Well, I can't know for sure. I don't think I have been full of bad stuff, at least not the way you portray it. I have just always felt kind of empty. Not lonely, but empty. Are you lonely?
>I think Im destined to just live in isolation in the outdoors and shoot guns. I dont like people
That's based, kind of.

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No, I truly fear/believe the Lord, even though it may not look like it with my sins, I kick myself on the inside for allowing myself to fail Him. I deserve Hell for the amount of times I've failed, but I'm hoping I can turn it around with the days of life He keeps providing me.
>But let me ask you this, have you never lost your faith in him? Do you believe in some form of afterlife?
I've never lost faith in Him ever since a couple of moments and I don't think I ever could. I may sin, run away, whatever like a normal human does, but the Lord has solidified with me for the rest of my life. Call it a cope, but I'm convinced. As for the latter part, yes I do. The standard Heaven and Hell.

>Were you always like this as long as you can remember? It's fine, you don't need to give details about stuff.
Are you a NEET or shut-in?
Ive always been pretty depressed and strange but its only gotten worse over the years, i am a shut-in.

But if you truly believe in him, you should know then that, from the way things changed, he will forgive you eventually if you are truly sorry and repent from those sins. After all, he knows humans are born sinners and will sin no matter what, right?
Were you born into a religious family or you became a believer or something?
Understandable. You don't have to go into details, but did something happen over the years or was it just, I guess decay of your mental strenght? How long have you been a shut-in? How do you get by?

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I'm empty on decent conversation. How many times do I have to talk about the fucking weather and how many times do I have to open my mouth and NOT talk about mundane shit and be looked at like a fucking weirdo? I don't like you for a reason you fucking loser, go suck another dick and see if it makes you feel better about yourself

Decay of my mental state plus increased poverty basically. Ive been a shut in for about a year and i get by from my mother but barely.

I know, but I guess I just simply dislike that it's apart of my human nature. You know? Though I could be forgiven, I wish that it didn't had to be.
> Were you born into a religious family or you became a believer or something?
Despite being born into a religious family, my family wasn't the one to convince me, it was of my own accord.

>But, in the past, did somethings bring you joy?

No, not really.
I had hopes that things would get better, but I don't have that any more.

I haven't done anything in the past 2 years. Before that I was either acutely concerned with survival, had a relationship, or was nolifing some stupid esport bullshit. The boredom is physically painful. How do you even enjoy something for more than a week or two? I'm jealous of those people who spend years enjoying a craft.

Overstimulation. Anything that doesn't provide instant gratification is trivial. Boredom is a matter of being a boring person. It's a self serving cycle

About this level

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this empty
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all of my rage

Hmm, but aren't you able to find a way to get a job or someway to get money to escape poverty?
Did you became a shut-in for this reason? Hvae you been one before? What does your mom thinks of this?
I don't really understand that, but I will leave it at that.
But maybe it played a big part into it? I don't know. I was born into a very religious family and for a long time, while I didn't feel like the way they wanted me to be or believe I did because it was expected of me.
Well, did you work for things to get better or not?
Welll, I got used to boredom over years. I can spend a few hours just doing nothing, just looking at the screen on the computer or at the wall while I just live in my head. Hell, even when im doing something, I'm still living in my head. The real world is unnapealing in every sense, specially real people.
I think there's a cap though, as to what level or amount of time you can actually truly enjoy something. Like with drugs, you get the same stimuli over and over and your braind adapts to it eventually giving you less pleasure.
Don't get it.
lol

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>Well, did you work for things to get better or not?
Yes, I genuinely did.
I worked on everything under my control.
Other people's love is unfortunately not one of those things.

>Hmm, but aren't you able to find a way to get a job or someway to get money to escape poverty?
What does your mom thinks of this?
Im currently trying to get a job but failing because i have no experience and no transportation. My mother is checked out atp she cares somewhat but i wouldnt be surprised if she killed herself before i do.

I'm so empty I don't even get replies in an empty thread

Fuck you niggers

im so empty i have to reply to this thread

Here is your (You) good sir.

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Perhaps I wasn't clear, let me try to be more clear. The reason I feel as so despite knowing full well that the Lord forgives me is because I wish that I didn't had to fall into sin. I wish I could become "perfect" but I simply can't because I am of the world. (I am garbage like the rest of the world.)
> But maybe it played a big part into it? I don't know. I was born into a very religious family and for a long time, while I didn't feel like the way they wanted me to be or believe I did because it was expected of me.
Trust me user, that's not it. I'm very independent of my family. Heck I even went to live with my grandmother because simply put, me and my mother don't see "eye to eye."

Pretty empty but it's ok, I'm kinda used to it.
My worst enemy is my own mind and how I view myself. I have no one so it's just me and my brain.

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I only feel joy on drugs these days

no goals no dreams
whatever happens happens
not like i can stop it
just trying to enjoy the little things while i can

It sucks. I guess it is best for us to not blame us in this sense, things out of our control, such as people's love or whatever. Which person's love you didn't get?
I guess you never went to college, yes? What kind of job you're looking for?
What do you think you will do if she kills herself?
Don't worry, I reply to almost everyone. So have another (you). Nigger.
Not so empty anymore then.
Yes, I kind of understood that, but I guess you're jsut being delusional in this sense because knowing this is a thing you cannot achieve or become and still blaming you this bad for it is not really ok.
Well, ok. I will trust you on this one.
Hey, if you are content and ok with just being by yourself that's good. The problem comes when being all by yourself and your own mind fucks you more than anything else.
Well, you said your own mind is your own enemy, but do you feel like it always fucks you up or is it just from time to time only?
Just ordered some myself a while ago. I'm drunk right now too.
That's a good way to go by in life. But what is it that truly gets to you then? What are the little things you actually enjoy?

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Yeah, almost everyone. Almost. Fuck you.

Any entry level job and no i didnt go to college, if she dies ill live with one of my family members ig but then ill probably kill myself as well. Night user thanks for talking to me.

Yeah, perhaps the way I go about it is not healthy, but I still wish I could be free from sin. Well that's all I really have user, thanks for the talk, I appreciate it. Have a good night.

>Hey, if you are content and ok with just being by yourself that's good. The problem comes when being all by yourself and your own mind fucks you more than anything else.
>Well, you said your own mind is your own enemy, but do you feel like it always fucks you up or is it just from time to time only?

I'm not ok with it, I'm just making the best with what I have. It's not like it's something I can change overnight, there's no value to me on my own for people to want to be a part of my life.
My mind is my own enemy because it feeds into the negative thoughts I have about myself, it's hard to think highly of yourself when you've been alone your entire life. None of my accomplishments or achievements matter, because my brain will find a reason to undermine it due to basic experiences that I lack, that's why I said my mind is my worst enemy.
I'm in a horrible downward spiral right now, actually I have been for over a year now but I'm slowly clawing my way back out. I don't know if it's worth it but what's the alternative?

>only boring people are bored
>people get what they deserve because they deserve it

this circular logic only works on retards. here's your (you), use it to boost your validation seeking low self-esteem.

>I can spend a few hours just doing nothing, just looking at the screen on the computer or at the wall while I just live in my head.

ive been doing this since like 3 or 4. you can be infinitely creative with your imagination and have all the stimulation necessary in your own head. the problem im experiencing is needing to be totally engrossed in something to care, even towards things immediately important for survival. i see basically everyone around me advancing in life by putting focus on things that aren't immediately gratifying. i can't even begin something long-term with all the distractions and alternate realities buzzing through my head at any given moment. you ever tried reading a book and after about 30 seconds your mind wanders off to an elaborate daydream of something tangentially related to the topic of the book, insofar as the tangent being even a single related phrase or word? it seems pointless to try to fight it. im hoping the adhd diagnosis comes through so i have a concrete biological answer to it all rather than just being handwaved by some faggot with an LMHC with an anxiety diagnosis.

the rising sun, occasional sweets, warm nights, getting high, mowing the lawn, thinking about my book im never going to write, nights when the moon is bright, guns, toads
about all i actually enjoy these days

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>Which person's love you didn't get?
It's not just one person, though there is a recent one that particularly hurts, and I know I'll never find another like her.
It's almost 30 years of not having love.

If I didn't reply to you before was because I saw what you said as a shit-post. No offence. Fuck you too then. (not really user, sorry for not replying then).
I see, well I guess you will just have to wait things out. Good luck to you user, I hope the best for you and you somehow manage to fix yourself.
You're welcome. Thanks to you too for talking and explaining yourself the best way you could. Sleep well.
My bad for misunderstanding then. It seemed to me like you were. Now I understand it better.
> It's not like it's something I can change overnight, there's no value to me on my own for people to want to be a part of my life.
Ok, that's something hard to see in yourself, but I still think people can find enjoyment in others and take interest on those who are this way, even if it's only online.
I understand it pretty well, how your own mind is the worst enemy you have. Even after all I have "achieved" myself too, it was stuff I realized I never wanted or made me feel good or have any joy in them. But if you think about it, in a way we are able to become our problems and push ourselves, right?
What made you go in this downward spiral since a year ago? Is there a specific reason? But you see, you are slowly getting back on your feet, that's something good I guess and that you recognize.
>I don't know if it's worth it but what's the alternative?
Maybe it is not. Hope is something than only can crush people like us even more until we have nothing more to give. But is it that wrong then? To give up completely?
Yes, that's something I struggle with myself a lot. But the thing I go about this situation is I go on my own pace, I try not to compare myself to others, that's a reason, not the main one, I cut everyone from IRL off. If i were comparing myself with them, things would be only worse. This doesn't works for everyone and I don't know if it will for you, but try to go at your own pace of things.

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Empty is just the tip of a capsizing iceberg, friend

Those sounds like some nice things actually. Specially the nighst the moon is right, like tonight for me.
What is the book you're never going to write about, if I can ask?
>Toads
why toads? hehe.
Well, I cannot say I understand it that much in this case. But what happened with this recent one in particular? Was she more special than the others?
Then tell me, what are the worse of your problems in this sense?

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Hey, at least we aren't alone in our struggles of misery

>Then tell me, what are the worse of your problems in this sense?
Consciousness

>What made you go in this downward spiral since a year ago? Is there a specific reason?
Someone that I thought for the first time in my life that cared about me turned their back on me when I was at a really low point. I thought they understood me but they never did.
>But is it that wrong then? To give up completely?
I don't know, I think a lot about suicide these days. Every aspect of my life has always been a grind and I've never just been accepted for being me, I always feel like I need to be improving myself to be good enough and I guess I can't really do it anymore. I really hope I have it in me to keep going, I'm feeling this dread that I don't have any more ffort to give and coming to the realization that I will end my own life makes me sad as hell.