The bad memories aren't being kept away by vidya anymore

Therapy is always pills this pills that and trying to milk you for every penny. I don't want to pay someone to care I just want someone to care out of the kindness of their own hearts. Gotta go back to work on the 11th which sucks dicks because my job is full of retrds dropping off trash thinking it will make a difference, I hope I get infected and die because it's all so fuckin pointless.

>any carrot to chase? A big, tough achievement? A tough game to win? That rank to achieve?
this is what made games not fun for me and I lost all my gaming friends because of this

based

Pills help though, but they make you kinda retarded so you could cope

Stop giving energy to the things you hate, start giving energy to the things that make you happy, and then just live in the moment.

>things that make you happy
Yeah, about that...

which one

What exactly happened? Most of my friends understandably stopped playing vidya when they started to get wives and kids.

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I have no goals and i no longer have a desire to make friends, I just sit in my room playing vidya until i'm suddenly bombarded by the past and I get panic attacks.

There ARE things that make you happy. Just stop fixating on everything that upsets you, things you wish happened, or wish could happen and you'll find it.

Would be easier to just kill yourself desu

ranked multiplayer became the norm and we all ended up in different skill brackets
I used to play dota 2 with my friends when it came out (and dota 1 before that) and then mmr happened and we slowly split up

Helium exit

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Suicide is the biggest sin, also you need to have guts for that.

I've considerd that a few times but leaving my brother alone is too painful a thought.

>you need to have guts for that.
Only if you go for something as retarded as suffocation, strangulation or train, jump. Agony can last for hours and you will feel all the pain.

Use proper methods.

such as?

unironically, you probably shouldnt do that unless you are old, my plan is at 55-60 since I lie in 3rd world shithole and no relatives - single eldery here always ends up on a street, goverment does not care

Not even a desire to get better to the point of winning multiplayer matches? Preferably something not team based because winning by your own merit is the best. Like I said, screw friends because they will piss you off to play some stupid ass vidya which you have zero interest in.

Like...getting better a game? Learning a skill usually is not fun. Otherwise most people would do well in school.

Kinda funny how I never thought that would be a thing. My condolences.

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Voluntarily face them

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go to a therapist

All heloum is diluted now because the gvt caught on. However helium for welding might still be pure enough to kys with

You know there are other things you can do in life that arnt video games right?

Alcohol, friend.
Whiskey helps me.
Also want to try cbd oil to chill but haven't got around it.

Sudoku and is all you have left. Your life is empty—but these sudoku boxes don’t have to be.

Morphogenic fields

>sin
lmao just existing gets you a one way ticket to hell regardless of what you do. But if you're spineless then it can't be helped.

probably moreso that helium is a finite resource and running out. we shouldn't waste it by sending it into the atmosphere for no reason other than "balloons are fun"

CBD does jack shit
unless it's actually got THC on it

I have never even smoked weed.
I have anxiety attacks from time to time so I though cbd would help for those at least.