The Spoony One

he'll become a tranny first. from there he will promote saw politics for four years, start having shouting matches online with random youtubers, then after a year of silence we discover how he died: voring his camera

>all of these early era youtube stars going through hardships because they thought their youtube money would last forever
sad

LMAO

Except he can't get money anymore and he's an abject failure. Get off of Yas Forums spoony.

>life is all about money
>self worth is derived by how well you can e-beg to pay your bills
Ok, spoony. kek.

Why are you defending this guy?

I used to be pretty badly depressed. Basically, you don't see a point. Why bother washing when you have no one to see anyway? Why bother washing when you feel so glum anyway?

You could not be more wrong

you literally have no motivation and your brain stops thinking about that shit. Especially when you dont have a job to go to and no need to leave your home.

Self worth being so low you just stop caring, you need to find a reason to care or you will just get worse.

The few that are actually doing fine give me hope

???????????????????

They should have saved. The thing is, Spoony could be making loads of money rn

how is a degree from back when you had to actually know math and low-level computer architecture not better than the degree you can get by being black and female?

He's self destructive it actually has nothing to do with depression.
Depression may add to susceptibility to do sudden bad decision however when in a constant state you will stabilize and when on medication you just kind of exist.

This is more so for bi-polar which he seems to be on his medication but has just mentally decayed to the point he's waiting for something he doesn't even know and is basically just existing to die someday

because race and sex are now more important than anything else

HA! Is he gonna live with his murderer of a brother? His parents if they are still alive?

...

Not if you don't keep up with new technologies. His degree is basically worth less than an online php course

He could be making a fine living if he's just put the tiniest bit of effort into making stuff for patreon

My experience was at times taking a shower felt like an impossible task. Hell half the time when I finally would drag myself in, it felt just as impossible getting out.
Getting a hair cut? Lmao fuck might as well have asked me to cure cancer.
A lot of days just getting out bed alone was a huge battle, imagine feeling like you have zero energy despite getting ridiculous sleep, zero motivation to do anything and get no enjoyment out of it.

not really.
I mean, does anyone need to know how to manually address hardware, which interrupt is the cascade, or how to convert hex to binary and vice versa?

No.
Some of the stuff is still relevant, but almost all CS changes drastically every 2-3 years. This is why a degree is functionally useless in IT. Fresh Certifications look much better.

You still need to know these things. Those are manditory classes.

The field is much more hard core now than it was then

I honestly doubt the guy even remembers any of that shit now anyway.

he probably took calc 3+ a healthy dose of electrical engineering courses, much more than any of you modern CS trannies can attest to

Because he has done nothing with it since like 2005, dude. It doesn't matter how valuable the degree is when the knowledge imparted in it is 20 years out of date?

>he hasn't posted on Patreon in almost 4 years.

>start to work on a project with enthusiasm
>self doubt sets in about whether the work or idea you're doing is any good
>lay on the couch trying to think of a better idea
>repeat

that's it for me atleast.

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it seems like his depression is too strong to make something different than livestreams

Movie reviews would be enough to get a good chunk of his fans back

His brother is actually relatively way more successful than him. But his brother won't let him lay around doing nothing at fucking 40 years old

That's a face of a man that has lost all hope

Self loathing is not the same things as medical depression though.

For instance you just have issues with life not medical. Depression is the most over diagnosed by leaps and miles

I don't know what to tell you I had the green light

and worth absolutely nothing in the field of software dev with no experience to show for it. That type of knowledge is only good for really advanced low level stuff which you won't get for a first job

>that fucking bloat

He's legit drinking himself to death, dang.

Anything requiring editing is out of the equation for him

He's well past it and to the point where he needs to sacrifice hobbies altogether until he can get himself back on his feet.

The world around you still exists, but it doesn't mean anything to you anymore. At the same time you lose passion for literally anything. What would be the point of putting in effort anyway? As a result, you lose your drive. The simple task of getting up in the morning and brushing your teeth seems monumental. Not even the contempt of your fellow man means anything to you, so why bother? That's what being depressed is about. You, the world, its opportunities - everything loses its value.

And that's assuming he actually remembers it all in any way; instead of being lost in decades of boozing

yeah a guy who solved multiple NP-complete problems could never learn the impossible task of coding (read: importing) a filestream object in java

Kek