Let’s talk about the games. Are you trying to beat one of the bullet hells, which boss are you on and so forth. Or if you think those are too hard, have you tried any of the fightans? maybe a fangame?
im currently having a lot of fun playing fantastic danmaku festival
Keep at it. Remember to practice your trouble stages on their own until you get it.
If you need to unlock a Stage 6 for Practice just increase the amount of starting lives, it won't be a legit 1cc but you'll at least be able to practice the final bosses.