I'm in my 30s and I believe that I am significantly fucked up because of my experience with homeschooling and the Quiverfull movement during the 90s. Before you prejudge me, please hear my story. I'm not a le reddit atheist faggot that has rebelled against my upbringing. I am still conservative and wish that I could experience religious community and faith but I am unable to be a believer now. While I have used soft drugs in my 20s, I am not a drugged out flunky or anything. I don't smoke marijuana and I rarely drink alcohol. Both just out of preference–I genuinely don't enjoy being inebriated. I have live with depression my entire life, but despite that I am a functioning adult, I work as a highly paid professional (0.25m/year), and despite the inner chasm of loneliness I can appear to socialized and well rounded within contexts like work.
For years I have yearned for someone to understand my experience and why I am so fucking isolated and weird as an adult. I've tried to describe it to friends and girlfriends over the years, but they either say "lol that's fucked up man jesus sucks" or something about how smart homeschool kids are. No one understands the psychological impact of being completely cut off from the world for your childhood. I am hoping that I can find some people who've had similar lives and that I might learn some coping mechanisms or how to recover. For years I've tried to find someone from my childhood that crashed out like me so I can reconnect with them, but any time I recall name and find them on FB, they appear to still be very much in the same church life and happily married–evidence that it can go well. I don't want to discourage anyone from homeschooling or having a big family. I legitimately think those are good things, but I hope that you carefully weigh the risks of how it can go wrong. Try not to fuck up your kids lives.
I'll be posting in this thread as I narrate the story. Forgive shitty writing, I'm posting as it comes to me.
"Quiverfull" is a nonexistent boogieman of the Left because of Whites having kids.
The families that do this DO NOT use that name, although they do quite the Bible verse. No one in such a group would ever self label themselves that.
Owen Richardson
People talk about memories they have at specific ages, or things that happened while growing up. I don't have that. My childhood is one dull blur of a memory, barely punctuated by any milestones. You have grade changes, first day at a new school, the kid you were best friends with at X age. I don't have any of those markers, so I can scarcely recall my childhood in chronological terms, but I do my best.
Let's go back to the 90s. There was just me and my big brother–separated by a few years–and my parents. I have no idea how my parents got sucked into this thing, because I assume they must have been normal at one point. Both sets of my grandparents are just regular conservative Christians. At some point we attended a church where we met some families that strongly believed in having lots of children, no method of birth control, etc. "Quiverfull" isn't a word I ever heard or knew of until literally yesterday when I was Googling around for some details relating to some fragmented memories around school curriculum and things that I remember. However, it describes to a T the lifestyle my parents entered into.
One family's dad was in this "contemporary" Christian band that's still "big" in the Christian music circuit. I don't remember clearly when or how they came into the picture, but I remember them well. Within this community, friendships with families were pretty cool. There was usually one of them around your age, so basically two families would hang out and everyone paired off with a buddy. With this family, one of the oldest girls was my age, and I remember her well. Anyway, I think they involved us into a church that preached against birth control, public school, etc.
Joshua Clark
You beat me to it. Please see
Aiden Perez
Prior to joining this church, I was almost completely isolated. My big brother did go to public school for a while, but I think they decided they wanted to homeschool 100% starting with me. I don't remember us having a stable church or community early on. I had one friend who happened to be my age, and was the son of my mom's lifelong galpal. You could say we were best friends by default. We can call him Jack.
Homeschool was pretty sweet. I woke up early, worked through some textbooks, and by lunchtime I was done and free to play in the woods. It's pretty amazing how quick it goes when the entire class isn't waiting for Tyrone to sound out words. On the flipside, I was and still am horrible at math. I never properly learned multiplication tables. Years later I landed in public school for high school, and had to take remedial classes out the ass just to catch up on algebra. My poor mom was out of her league there.
My childhood play basically consisted of gardening during the summer, playing in the woods, crafting things, playing with tools, or going to work with my dad (who is a home builder). I don't think it was a ripoff. I am really grateful that my childhood wasn't polluted with cartoons and action figures and gay shit like that. My friend Jack's family was more "normal" at this time, so he has Beast Wars or whatever the fuck. When we played I had literally no fucking clue how this shit was fun. I wanted to build a birdhouse or something.
Life was basically family-oriented all the time. Birthdays were with family, not a party with your friends. The things we did together were like a reenactment of Little House on the Prairie. We canned and sewed and stuff like that.
Correlation is not causation. Your parents adopted this retarded lifestyle because they're autists. You became an autist because of your genetics. That's the commonality.
Dude ok , you had a weird social life growing up , but how about junkies in school, packs of idiots attacking you 20 to 1 , people making fun of you for not having expensive clothes, everybody trying to shit on you so they feel better , stinking classrooms, all out leftists everywhere from the junkies to the teachers, leftist kids burning books after school ends every year , mind you i was not in a ghetto but in "nice" and lefty area , fuck public schooling , it is just a zoo but also boring af, wish i started boxing back then.
Luke Torres
OP you sound like a faggot, you got a decent upbringing and are better off than many. Quit your bitching. I can assure you that your loneliness and depression are not caused by you being home schooled. I was never properly socialized until I joined the military and getting along with others became something I had to learn, despite having been through the public education system my whole life.
gif related is an alternative your parents could have raised you around. So sorry you had a family oriented upbringing. Sounds really tough man. You fucking bitch.
Your propaganda is weak, like your bloodline. I had the same upbringing at the same time period and it is why I've been so much more successful than my contemporaries.
So we joined this church, and met lots of other families like us. The more children you had, the more you were doing God's will, so starting with my little brother we came several years after me, they started to hammer out a new kid almost yearly. During this time, my parent's became increasingly strict and cut off more secular stuff. As a young young child, I did get to watch cartoons on Saturday. That kind of stuff got trimmed out, and other stuff got added. I don't want to exaggerate their religiosity, but many things were identified to be satanic, or worldly, or most off secular, and then banned. I actually think they were right about some of it. They might have been over zealous, but like I said, at least I didn't grow up reading anime comics or whatever. That shit would be been satanic, no question.
I don't know the names of many institutions or publishers, but there is like this whole underground market of highly Christian media. Music, books, films. That was the intellectual input in our family. We read this book, Wisdom and the Millers, together regularly, and many more by the same publisher. I loved these stories and to this day I think they imparted good values that have been useful to me. We watched a lot of Feature Films for Families. It's insane how well I remember these movies. Normal people talk about 80s and 90s hits like Flight of the Navigator, or Ninja Turtles. I remember Rigoletto and Split Infinity. As an adult I've almost forgotten that they exist. It's not like I happen upon them on Amazon and decide to watch them out of nostalgia. I've considered pirating them or buying a DVD or something, but they're probably god awful movies.
I assure you that I am not bitching yet user. If you read my posts I am trying to recollect my childhood candidly and fairly. I am not upset with the choice to homeschool and be Christian. If you listen to my story without prejudging you may appreciate what I have to say.
Angel Ramirez
Fuck off, christfaggot.
Nolan Campbell
My experience growing up is quite similiar to yours, however, you sound like a normalfag and I don't think we'd relate to each other. I cant empathize with someone who actually likes socializing enough that he voluntarily has friends and girlfriends.
Leo Moore
>Spineless faggot complaining that he had good parents and an actual homeschooling system
Fucking faggot, my stoner parents pulled me out of school because I said I was going to kill everyone (because of my untreated and ignored intense social phobia), and left me to rot, never had a single conversation with me, zero friends, horrifying abusive older sister, 'almost 40 and despite being top of my field I can't do shit with myself. Die normie!
Austin Cooper
>You have no idea how fucked up I am in the head for being raised like kids were all throughout human history until very recently. >Friendly reminder to send your kids to hip hop gorilla re-education twerking tik tok whore factories to learn how oppressed they are.
Nathan Moore
Nigger I'm reading your posts and I really don't see the big deal. So what your parents popped out a shitload of kids, my parents were also religious zealot christians when I was growing up. It has nothing to do with why your "fucked up" or "depressed". It's called being different, own that shit. Quit being a bitch to rest of society because you were raised a little differently. Unless you were raped or some shit, I'm not gonna feel bad for you, and even if you were, no one here is gonna believe you or feel bad for you. This is Yas Forums you dumb nigger
All of your venting just comes across as anti white family propaganda. Now I'm not a family psych doc or anything (who also pozzed btw) so I can't really say what the best kind of family unit is, but damn near every time someone complains about growing up in a family orientated environment, they're jews pretending to not be jews.
your parents should have taught you npt to be a narcisist cunt
Jaxson Bailey
Respect. You are more homeschool than me. Sorry user that sounds very difficult. I am indeed fortunate. I know this is difficult for your poisoned public school brains but please be patient enough for me to continue with my story. I am typing as fast as I can. I have not yet said that I disagree with this upbringing, resent it, or want you not to do it. I am very pro growing up in a trad family. Please wait until the fallout chapter before you assume I am blaming this period of my life for my present condition. If only.
Church life was cool. Prior to joining, Jack was my only friend, and I only saw him on occasion when our moms got together. We had tumbled through a couple churches, but once this one stuck, I was suddenly surrounded newfriends. I was always a little behind them socially because for the first 8-10 years of my life I didn't have any, but I enjoyed this period intensely. We fit in, I fit in. Sunday was my favorite day of the week. I was like that faggot Morel Orel.
It didn't last forever, though. A few dark things happened during this time. One, a kid my big brother's age apparently molested a little girl. The family and church elders didn't go to the police because this was just a sin. It was seen as something that can be corrected. Sadly, a little while later, the molester's little brother who was my age molested a little girl. I always hated this faggot because while the rest of us go serious spankings for so much as saying "butt," he was a disgusting degenerate we always talked about perverted shit.
The next thing that happened is that a faggot adult molested a little boy. I also hated this faggot named Kelly (his real name, fucking burn in hell faggot). One time he tried to say staying in a car during lightning is safe because the wheels are rubber. I told him he was wrong, it's safe because the frame of the car will channel the electricity into the ground instead of through you. He went into a pissy rage until a church elder was like "actually user is right!" Anyway, this poor kids fucking retarded parents let him go on a trip with this faggot because the faggot claimed to be a godly mentor or something. They really should be executed. This too was covered up. Until it happened a second time. Who knew that a molesting faggot would molest again? Thank god I escaped unscathed unless my memory has purged itself to protect me. I never actually found out which kids got diddled.
Julian Howard
Thanks OP, please keep typing. Real OC long form stories are gold here
Aiden Murphy
Yeah you would have been way better off having psych drugs stuffed down your throat while an uncool wine aunt fed you propaganda all day until you finally snap and shoot up a school while calling it the real world. Fuck off you whiny bastard.
Nathan Thompson
Also I was in GATE, desu homeschooling might have been better
Nathaniel Lopez
I was homeschooled from 3rd-11th grade In a catholic family, i really enjoyed it honestly I got to learn how to make meals, house chores and go out and about during the day, going to swim practice, volunteering at homeless shelters, hell I even went with a trip with a homeschool group down to sketchy Mexico and built them houses when all the normie kids were in school jail, wasn’t bad or anything my mom always taught me to critically think and always seek the truth.
Then I went into my senior year of high school at an actual public school for the first time and i kept getting in trouble for asking critical questions and questioning my teachers on subjects. Turns out a lot of public school kids had no idea about questioning authority or what the real world actually is, also another benefit of homeschooling is sociability I was able to get girlfriends and sleep with girls with ease, I’m always able to converse and socialize with any group and not have any problem. Homeschool is pretty awesome in my experience.
Jayden Cooper
Followup to say that once the faggot my age molested a girl, that family got kicked out of the church. Idk if reported to the authorities. The adult faggot did get reported the second time and did time. More recently I heard these stories about how he did it again. Has more times since, from what I can glean from his record.
Good point. Id counter argue with my own life and how public school ruined me socially. I'd rather have had what OP had because shit family and shit environment is doubly shit. Now quit being a bitch OP.
Joshua Cruz
I feel the same, user.
Cameron Evans
>Homeschooling taught me to invest my energy into Mexican endeavors and to be a more successful fornicator. Haha how fucking sad is this
Ryder Lopez
OP, you have the privilege of not being a normie faggot. Do not join them, but instead look down on your inferior neighbours for having sheep minds. Live life your own way. There is no need to want to live like the other fags. What good will come out of hanging around with the normie bastards?
Juan Brooks
The great thing about being home schooled is that without having to learn to be considerate of the time of 30 other students, because there are no other students, you can ramble on almost endlessly without it ever occurring to you distill your thoughts down to bite size portions. I really think that's the best thing about homeschooling, personally. In this regard I am like my uncle Jack. He lived alone for 40 years before his death, and this gave him an uncanny ability to speak without pausing. I always admired that. Let me tell you about the time he raped me.
Jeremiah Campbell
Around the time that these molestation scandals are going down, a couple of the church elders express a desire to plant a smaller sister church way out in the country. My parents got onboard to move from suburbia to this rural area. I was excited as hell. For me, it meant another opportunity to spend more time with one of the elder's families, one of who was becoming my best friend. Seriously brilliant guy who taught me lots about electronics, circuits, and general building and tinkering while other kids were learning about power rangers.
If the parent church was hokey, this church was seriously hokey. Almost every family homeschooled (which again, is fine for all you public school faggots who can only read two dimensional diatribes and assume that I am a jew trying to ruin white homeschool for you). Life for all of us centered around church. We ate together every Sunday, we had all day classes after Sunday morning service, when we planned camping trips, it was just church folks. They were our everything. I learned a lot about not having sex and how it will ruin me if I do. Before I even knew what masturbation was or why you would want to touch your dick for anything but peeing, I learned that it was a sin and caused a great number of ailments. Idk if nofap is good or not. I'm not severely sexually dysfunctional or anything now.
It does seem that this smaller church offshoot was "better" than the parent. I never heard stories of faggots molesting people here. However, another darkness in this period. The family that I think first introduced us to this whole thing. Their dad hung himself because he couldn't quit calling 900 sex chat, fapping to porn and on a couple of occasions fucking whores. Jack told me that when they found his body hanging in a hotel room, there was porn mags all over the room. I only observed this from afar, because this family stayed at the parent church.
Traditional Christianity, and all other Semitic religions for that matter, are clear on the faggot question; they are an abomination and must immediately be put to death. This is a necessary policy in order to protect tight-knit communities with small children from mentally ill perverts and predators. Obviously our regime is run by faggots and perverts of various sorts and your small Christian sect had no real tools to deal with the problem, making it a prime target for faggot infiltration. >Their dad hung himself because he couldn't quit calling 900 sex chat, fapping to porn and on a couple of occasions fucking whores This seems like the case of a deranged pervert who joined the sect in the hopes that it would cure his perversion, attracting these types is another risk of these small eccentric communities.
Overall, I'm still not convinced that growing up in your sect was substantially worse than growing up in our Wiemar dystopia.
