This is a plea for help. My whole life I've been a failure. I've really never had any sense of belonging. From a young age I was socially withdrawn, all I did with my time was draw. I remember in Elementary school I'd take colored chalk from the classroom and draw on the paved parking lot, distancing myself from the other children. At most I'd have between 1-2 friends at a time. I was anxious and would panic at the slightest inconvenience. The only thing that provided solace was drawing, it was my diversion from reality. I was never interested in sports or music, so I never participated in those activities after Elementary School. It feels to me at age 14 I had given up on life. I stopped contacting friends, my only activity was attending school. I was a lonely person, and I resorted to disassociation to fill in the void of loneliness.
Now I am 21. The past seven years of my life, from high school until now, have felt largely empty. I have no real interesting stories to speak of. I was enjoying myself for the most part at college, met some cool people, but now with the pandemic I've reverted back to a state of NEETdom. Is it true that your twenties are supposed to be the peak of your life? If it's true this pandemic lasts for 2 more years, that means I'll graduate before the lock-down is lifted. All my current friends will have either moved away or found jobs, I'll be totally alone again. I was betting on making lifelong friends in college, but now that seems improbable.
give me your energy anons. I was on nofap, I was exercising, but the past few weeks I've lost all self-esteem and determination. Please give me strength, please help me ascend to godhood.
>Is it true that your twenties are supposed to be the peak of your life? No. >I'll be totally alone again You must learn to be okay with this before it's useful to be around others. >I was betting on making lifelong friends in college, but now that seems improbable. You are still very young. >give me your energy anons. I was on nofap, I was exercising, but the past few weeks I've lost all self-esteem and determination You know what needs to be done. Do it.
You're going to be okay, user. I was a mess in my twenties. It does get better.
Your twenties aren't your peak. I used to live in San Francisco, and I understand why people jump off your big red bridge.
Much of it is just finding a good match. In friends, lovers, work, domicile.
Not every person, every friend, every lover, every job, or every country are mutually good matches. It doesn't mean either of them are defective.
Chaos is coming. Yet with chaos comes opportunity. Realize that many of the greatest men were lost much of their lives. Hungry. Worse.
You'll make it. You've got fight in you. Anxiety is good for many jobs; mine is included. There is a great need for nervous people; plenty of things need to be watched closely. Nervous people are the best at that.
Lincoln Thomas
Jannies, don't fucking delete this you braindead fucking nigger tranny cunts.
