Is chaos really a negative regarding the attainment of divine consciousness? This statements resonate with me, but at the same time, I feel being so stiff and straightforward with the concepts like order and harmony, it has limited my ability to grow within a community, specially when dealing with the opposite gender. The other humans on their path are entropic, they don't build towards anything and rather destroy the balance and act selfishly, or are unable to accept they're wrong and just project their mistakes on someone else before blaming themselves.
I've tried really hard to deal with this conundrum, the more I try to be logical, to push for the greater good, the more I appear obstinate and pompous, the less my message reaches, the more I struggle and the more I sink, and I can't grow in any way, I just keep quiet and watch the mess unfold as everyone acts like predatory beasts and rarely lower their defenses.
