I'm gonna try to create a worthwhile thread every day.
Las thread: Have any of you had any experiences with trauma in your lives? I didn't really see the world as fundamentally broken until I suffered from poverty, parental neglect, and bullying. It wasn't until then, that I realized something was very wrong with the planet, and I had a fixation with fixing it.
This is what led me to do research, for example, on the root problems with the structure of the world. If all was well and dandy for me, I probably would have never realized anything needed to be fixed.
My parents never really talked to me, my peers thought I was strange. I was bullied a lot, at one point some kids from my mom's church put either dog or geese feces in my hat and made me wear it. Two kids forced me to perform oral sex on them, and other raped me anally.
My elder brother ignored me and hated playing with me. I'm not sure if this is necessarily sexual abuse....but I used to make out with my mom for hours, and she made me participate in all kinds of absurd religoous rituals.
Have you considered not being a faggot? This tends to help.
Julian Collins
My whole life is one big trauma. I cant remember last time I was genuinely happy and not anxious. Probably in my teens.
Angel Bennett
>but I used to make out with my mom for hours, and she made me participate in all kinds of absurd religoous rituals Tf?
Jack Powell
What do you suggest? Being a badass and beating the shit out of people who fuck with me?
Jonathan Sanchez
Sorry for your trauma, user. Nothing here. Fell down some icy stairs pretty hard once (as an adult). Got kinda anxious and gripped the railing tight for like a week but soon forgot about it. Was very weird for that week though. Got this uncontrollable fear of (exterior) stairs. Can imagine other deeper trauma is pretty fucked up. >sex isnt that big of a deal unless you get the herp or the hiv >people are fucked up and most that did those things to you each had their own trauma You sound fairly well adjusted. Get over it and move on. Look forward. Hit the weights. Be happy.
What happened? Because I am the same way. I genuinely cannot remember the last time I was happy. I get brief glimpses of what it feels like not to be depressed, and I wonder just how much better it feels to be happy all the time.
Kayden Collins
>I'm gonna try to create a worthwhile thread every day. >Blogposts
Hahahaha, OK, this thread was worthwhile after all. Thanks for the laugh, fren.
Tyler Perry
Yeah.... it's a long story.
Nicholas Nelson
Post your arm. Just dont be a little faggot, and people won't rape you.
Joshua Ross
Were you in a church or a cult?
Mason Rogers
It's good that you're keeping it up man. I swear it's getting auto-saged.
You asked me if I was an oldfag on the other thread because I was talking using "age" like sage. Yeah, I've been here since 2006. It seems like a lot of the basic functuinality of this site is lost on the all the new fags.
Medieval peasants wandered around roman ruins having no idea where they came from. They were just there. That's how this site is, the newfags wandering around an older generations ruins with no clue.
Colton Phillips
You sound like you have a victim complex. Did the 2 people "force " you at the same time?
Juan Barnes
No, we ironically enough only went to a few churches, like the one where those kids shoved feces in my hat.
Easton Thompson
You think it's as easy as you make it sound, but my own mother believed other kids' words over mine, and they knew this, they threatened to tell her lies about me.
Isaac Long
My life happened basically. Im born out of wedlock and rised by a psychotic and abusive single mother. I feel shame and guilt for whole of my life.
Blake Smith
>how much better it feels to be happy all the time Feels good. Took it for granted most of my life until I realized there were so many anxious, shy, low self-esteem people. I'm from a poor broken home but I guess I've just always been humble in a certain way. You can basically have to believe you can have what you want. Almost a delusion. Shoot for the stars. You'll come up short but you'll still be flying. Hit the weights. Can stress that enough.
Kayden Carter
No one is happy all the time. Majority of people suffer from anxiety, doubt and insecurities. They just larp as normies. We should strive for fulfillment brother.
Austin Wright
1) Your shit is fucked bud, and I had a pretty shitty childhood. I really do feel for you user. 2) you should go grease the people who sexually assaulted you. In Minecraft. I’m not saying that I would recommend hurting anyone. I’m just saying one time in Minecraft, this man raped my at the time Minecraft girlfriend, and I knew his gamer tag, so I found him and topped him. In Minecraft.
>you think its as easy as you make it sound I do in fact think it is easy not to be raped you nerdy little faggot. Holy shit im not sure whether you're hillarious or depressing. How the hell did this go down? >"slurp on our foreskins or we'll tell your mom you're gay"
in my experience people on Yas Forums generally have all experienced trauma and if they say they haven't they're coping and can't accept it
my therapist recommended I join a 'youth sobriety group' when I was 16 with a history of depression and no drug use. The group was a cult, I was forced to cut off the outside world, drop out of school, cut off family, etc. I was emotionally, mentally, and occasionally physically abused for years.
You sound like you had a fucked up time too user, ignore trolls. I'm sorry you went through that.
Hunter Myers
I remember old Yas Forums used to be like Yas Forums up to a few years ago in some regards. You had entire threads dedicated to manipulating exploitables, altering existing memes, creating new ones, those were some mindless pieces of fun. Not to mention all the discussions that went on. I have no idea why people think it was just porn, because even most of the porn was posted as an unrelated image in various discussion threads. Maybe I'm just imagining things? Yas Forums used to be like fucking recipes, instruction manuals on DIY projects, and personal stories instead of "incels" (I hate using that word but you know what I mean). And /x/ was full of effortposters who would actively take pictures of "haunted" places.
This was a magical place, unironically, and I guees coming here was easier than attempting to make friends IRL. That's what I did. I half-regret it, I just wished I'd taken some screenshots, I had no idea that all the archives were gonna die. Maybe one day even 4plebs will die and newfags are gonna pretend Yas Forums was always full of nothing but nigger dicks and god-knows-what will be here in the future.
I haven't seen a single quality thread on Yas Forums in months. I just don't recognize this world. You are right, it does sort of feel like the post-Roman-Germanic transistion, but nore than that it feels like the pagan-Christian transition. The magic, beauty, art, science, and mystery of the pagan world: forlorn, replaced by the dull, emotionally unevocative, lifeless, and grey husk of Christianity. All of the vibrant swirls and shades and spark....gone forever.
Adrian Moore
Do you mind giving me a throaway email where we can discuss this more? I unfortunately shared all of my throaways with people and don't want it to pop up on the archives when they Google it. I can't make more because Tutanota and Protonmail banned me from making more, I've tried clearing cookies and changing IPs, they won't even let me do kt on a library computer, perhaps because others have already used the library wifi to make some.
Christian Rivera
How old are you?
Angel Robinson
Was it Teen Challenge? They did the same thing to my brother.
Nicholas Garcia
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Grayson Garcia
My mom was extremely psychotic. Everyday, she would come home and yell at me for no reason, and make me pray with her to (((Jewsus))) for hours. And she made out with me as well, and we slept together (not like sex) until I was 14 or 15, and she used to make me shower with her. She would obsess over my school performance, which made me intentionally underperform just to spite her.
My father died when I was a little kid, and my family on his side hates me.
Jason Gomez
I heard it was pretty hard at that times with a single Mother. Today it's relativly normal
Carson Walker
One year I saw 2 people die and one dog die. A guy jumped in front of the subway right beside me. Fucking asshole made me late to work. The rest of the day felt like the Truman show, except I was aware of it. Every felt unreal, as if everyone was an actor around me acting out a day. I guess that was shock. Then some old lady straight up walked in front of a car and got smoked. I think she died when her head his the ground. The crack was a wild noise. Then some dude walking his german shepherd somehow got off his leash and instantly ran into the road and got smoked and his head was like split in half. All this happened within 2 months lol.
Cameron Nelson
Jeez you had i rough buddy. May god gives you strength.
Christian Rodriguez
>I'm gonna try to create a worthwhile thread every day. you've already failed. the world is fundamentally broken, but only because white trash like your parents were allowed to reproduce instead of being culled generations ago
Michael Gomez
Why do they hate you? I have read many such stories on Yas Forums. Some people here hae really disturbing families
Xavier Wood
I did try to hit the weights as a teenager, but I can't gain any muscle. It's not even like I'm ectomorphic (I was as a kid, but not anymore). It's not like I wasn't getting stronger, I could bench press over 300 lbs and do 200 consecutive pushups (I swear I'm not making it up) at my peak, but I was still as thin-limbed as ever. Nobody ever believed me when I told them I could, and for some reason when I tried to prove it I became really nervous and that prevented me from being able to perform, and I looked like a liar.
I am 5 foot 6 and remained at 115 pounds for a long time, and recently I began eating a lot of meat, and moved up to 150 lbs, but even now I can't gain any muscle. I've tries so many different times, I just don't have the genes for it. I knew a few nerds who got bullied, started lifting, and became absolutely massive, and I wish I was like that, but unfortunately I am not.
Charles Nelson
You sound like you need a professional to talk to not me
Gabriel Baker
>she made me participate in all kinds of absurd religoous rituals They didn't involve killing animals, maybe even other kids, did they?
They were circumsized but I get your point. It was a lot worse than your dramatization, although I get your point as well.
I was the most abnormal kid and everybody knew they could get away with abusing me, so everybody did to some extent. Even the girls bullied me, and I got my ass kicked by three girls who cornered me after class. I guess women really hate males with inferior genetics, and want to weed it out of the gene pool by any means.
Jack Allen
Took care of my dying mother while ALS destroyed her body. The days before she died she had the purest childlike look in her eyes. Now that shes gone I have nothing left
Cameron Lopez
No, it wasn't - I've heard bad things about TC but it pales in comparison to my cult. Google Bob Meehan, I was in several of his programs.
Aiden Davis
I maybe phrased that wrong. They see me as worthless, and one aunt tried taking out life insurance on me. She wanted to make life insurance for me, and I started freaking out and never talked to her again after that, but it sounds unbelievable. You got raped, you made out with your mom, some kids smeared shit on your head, and now you're also saying your aunt tried to make life insurance for you? Do you think this is James Bond meets Home Alone or something?"
Aiden Jones
No, just repetitions of wierd religious phrases and recitals of bizarre prayers. The main reason I hate the tribe is because they wrote the bible.
Isaac Sanchez
I just had a violent ex-drug addicted father who would beat my mother every time he got drunk and that was a rare occasion, the one time i remeber the most was when i had to defend my morther from him during christmas and we fought, and after that fight he almost destroyed everything in living-room ( christmas tree included ) my mom called the cops and me and my cousin had to block him because he wanted to stop my mom, and then when the cops came he tried to justife himself saiyng that for over 10 years they never had sex and he masturbared a lot ( yea I know it's strange). Almost every day would have been just verbal abuse, both me and my sister have some problems but they are not really that severe ( i have some fit of rage or i start to cry, and my sister is a bit depressed), then when i was little i was scared shitless of my mother because she used to beat me really hard because i didn't want to study (i was around 7-8 years old? sorry i dont remeber) then she stopped when she realized that i was scared of her. Then one time my mother accused my father that he tuched me ( at the time i was sleeping in the same bed with my father and i didn't know a lot about sex so i used to tuch my peepee because it felt good as you can see i was stupid af) and she thought it was because of him, from then i started to sleep in the livingroom. Then Just about 1-2 months ago i beated him because he was still verbally abusing her (btw they divorced 2 years ago) and from then on it was a good period, they stopped fighting and now i am good, but my sister started to lose eyelashes and eyebrows. Sorry for the bad english fags
Benjamin Nguyen
Phrenology is very important. You can tell if you can trust someone by their faces, and Bob Meehan looks scummier than the most stereotypical kike I've ever seen. Anthony Weiner literally looks more trustworthy than Meehan. I've never met Meehan but I automatically hate him, he's never done anything to me personally but I am filled with rage and enmity for him, just by looking at his disgusting, worse than a cockroach face.
Elijah Sanders
This is not a genetic problem. Stop making excuses. You are a beta male by choice. Stop being a faggot or I'll be the next to rape you.
Aaron Davis
This is not a genetic problem. Stop making excuses. You are a beta male by choice. Stop being a faggot or I'll be the next one to rape you.
Easton Cooper
My mom used to ask me a lot of questions about my masturbation habits as well. I had a wierd way of doing it, not like how the typical person does it, (no fingering my ass or faggot shit like that), and my mom told me to try doing it in her prescense, and she would ask me all sorts kf bizarre questions like what the longest period I went without masturbating is, etc. She asked me to describe the sensation and compare it to more common sensations.
Thomas Roberts
>Have any of you had any experiences with trauma in your lives? I didn't really see the world as fundamentally broken until I suffered from poverty, parental neglect, and bullying. It wasn't until then, that I realized something was very wrong with the planet, and I had a fixation with fixing it. I'm the same.
Blake Howard
It is a genetic problem though. Do you think, for example, if my father was Erik the Red, or Andrew Jackson, that I would be this beta? Jackson got his ass nearly beaten to death by British officers and still, he persisted.
Erik was expelled from his homeland and sailed thousands of kilometers to found part of the New World.
I couldn't even stop two beta dicklets from making me suck them.
Jace Nelson
>My parents never really talked to me, my peers thought I was strange. I was bullied a lot, at one point some kids from my mom's church put either dog or geese feces in my hat and made me wear it. Two kids forced me to perform oral sex on them, and other raped me anally. > >My elder brother ignored me and hated playing with me. I'm not sure if this is necessarily sexual abuse....but I used to make out with my mom for hours, and she made me participate in all kinds of absurd religoous rituals.
post their names Yas Forums will take care the rest.
Alexander Clark
What happened, if you don't mind me asking?
I think I read too many books and this gave me the delusion that one person with enough willpower and charisma could singlehandedly fix the world.
Landon Reed
you don't understand he/she might not be joking? Fucking neck yourself faggot.
James Jenkins
based
pretty sure he's washed up with alzheimers now, unfortunately his family still controls the entire program. His son is named clint stonebraker, similarly punchable face.
Brody Edwards
I really.... can't. I'm too much of a beta faggot (not a literal homosexual but a wimp) to reveal my identity here by doing that. I guess I will die without getting any revenge, yeah, it's sad, but such is the fate of a beta cuck.
Andrew Jenkins
the only person that can fix you is yourself, you have to separate from ego and the real self. It uis not easy but hardship in life makes it easy.
Logan Morris
If either of them was your father, they would have beaten some sense into you. Did you even ever talk to your dad? If you didnt have a father then the picture is slowly starting to materialize.
Austin Hall
>I used to make out with my mom for hours, and she made me participate in all kinds of absurd religoous rituals
then move on, leave the past behind and live for the now.
Nicholas Barnes
I wasn't joking. This makes it hard for me to tell my story because nobody will believe me.
Daniel James
>927 i know dark feels for 20 years before i started to get better, its diet.
Dominic Reyes
no real vitamin D, A, K2 the list goes on...
Jackson Ramirez
I did..and he died of alcoholism when I was a little kid.
Yeah, if Jackson or Erikson were my father, they would have beaten me, but unless they were also my biological father, wouldn't have made me a chad, or even an alpha. Jackson also adopted a feathernigger like a cuck, and his last words expressed a desire to meet his nigger slaves in heaven as equals. So he wasn't nearly as based as we think, but if I had his genes I definitely wouldn't be a beta.
