Army 31B. Deployed in Iraq in 2005. My last tour over there ended in 2009. Served six years overseas and at home.
I was married, but my first wife left me while I was deployed in Iraq. I found out she cheated on me several times. I picked up a drinking habit when I came home. I met my second wife at the bar. We moved in together after dating for six weeks. Unfortunately, I have PTSD from the war. My second wife left me because I abused her. I was afraid she was cheating on me. I have trust issues and combined with a sociopathic habit of assessing every human being as a threat who might be out to kill me things can get ugly.
I'm drinking right now. I'm on my third beer and I've only been home from work for about 25 minutes. I work unloading trucks at Walmart. Some nights I don't get out until 2 AM. My parents think I could do better because I'm 32, but I don't like people and can not get along with office types. I'm thinking about killing myself. Four of my buddies have died by suicide. You don't know what that is like. You don't know what it is like to zone out while watching Power Rangers on Netflix at 3AM thinking about the buddies you had in Iraq calling you home...
if you're in a legal state go get some weed, its helped alot of vets deal with similer shit. and it also might make you quit drinking. you are alive my freind, and you wont be for much longer relatively speaking, so just enjoy what you can and fuck everyone. thats my advice
Colton Clark
I'm going to do it after the original Power Rangers team breaks up in season 2.
Dominic Sanders
go for a run to clear your head. Get some help.
Brayden Cook
it probably seems like a thousand centuries ago but did you manage to inoculate the children?
Adam Parker
You need to find somthing you are passionate about. A hobby. My hobby is beating off. Try to find a hobby that makes you money and that you are passionate about.
Stop with the booze. I can't relate to your situation at all but man, booze ain't good.
Colton Carter
Don't trust the VA Don't tell them shit Get off any meds they've given you for depression, pain, ptsd Weed is not good, but better than that shit or constant drinking Don't take the coward's way out If your body isn't wrecked I'd recommend finding some sport of physical activity that's therapeutic Suggestions (location dependent): Skiing/snowboarding, surfing, hiking, hunting We're on the verge of civil war/balkanization 8 years tops We will need your skill set
Kevin Ross
This Smoke weed and trip balls Also stop being such a bitch
James Collins
There is nothing wrong with where you are working right now, but you can do better- everyone can always do better, strive for that. Get a hobby man, learn to paint, cook something
Cameron Baker
Bro, before you buy the farm, take some motherfuckers out with you. Goddamn it, son, remember your training, only the weak self-exit without a stack of the enemy dead at his feet.
Find a mosque, find a synagogue, find some nigger cornerboys, find some ses at the store, and just fucking start unloaidng. Cut the pie, circle in and make'em die and when Johnny Law shows up, take a few of those cunts with you on your exit to Valhalla.
Fuck this gay earth.
>tools of the trade
You want to give up because you want someone to swoop in and set you straight. Ain't gonna happen. Either square your shit out or get with the program and make some motherfuckers pay for you pain.
Don’t be guilted into doing a job that better fits your “potential”. It’s a never ending tail chase. Been there, done that. It’s not fun.
I’ve always envied people who enjoy their repetitive low stress jobs. I mean, a lot of people hate their jobs. My point is, it’s the people who learn to love their modest lot in life I think are the ones who are truly happiest. Even if they don’t realise it - everyone else is worse off.
On to your other issues - alcoholism runs in my family. It’s a nice distraction but it destabilises you. You need to be centred user. Alcohol, or any drug, throws you off centre. You lose yourself. Which, I know, feels nice in the moment, but it fucks your long game up.
And I know I know, as Keynes said; in the long run were all dead. If you can’t make it through the short run there’s no point in even considering the long run.
Nothing left to say but be strong and try your best to do what’s right.
Simple sentence but probably the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do.
Adrian Barnes
Reminder that "vets" are failed soldiers who did not die on the battlefield. All "vets" should do everyone a favor and KYS
Only people I know who became vets were literal low IQs, I know this guy who was in Iraq in 2007 and he said he had to sleep in dirt holes for 2 weeks lol I slept in my cozy bed and get better benefits than he does
Anyways anyone I know who’s a vet is a loser and has severe problems that can’t be addressed short of a 9mm Luger round to their skull so sorry man maybe try Target I hear their work conditions are better
Wyatt Gonzalez
I know someone who had a very similar story who commit suicide. Good luck and no you should not kill your self.
Camden Diaz
Don't do it, your only setting an example for the next generation of soldiers and how they'll end up too, don't do it
Jack Bell
Bro, do you have any buddies left in your situation? If so, start hitting them all up and all of you crazy fucks move in together. You need your unit right now. They're the only ones that know what you're going through and you need eachother now more than ever. Start a whatsapp chat group for you all. Remember that everyone that you lost over there and after yall got back would never want you to end it. They'd want you get through it and never feel any guilt for them. It'll be a difficult road, but you can do it user.
Thomas Morgan
There is no hope
Thinking about offing myself. Been over dosing lately
Hey vet here also, get off the prescribed meds... Go PT yourself. Get fresh air... Don't smoke weed, and don't drink it makes joint issues worse. At most use CBD oil to treat injuries of any fibro related tension from stress. Find a yoga class. You don't need to talk to anyone. Surround yourself with positivity. Find a CrossFit club... Anything even a 24 he gym. Your life sounds soul crushing but it doesn't have to be brother. Don't let things live rent free in your mind.
Learn to breath again also... Your breathing is the only subconscious / automatic response you can control.
Just sit comfortably. And pay attention to how you breath I bet it's shallow... I bet your chest feels tight... Take full deep breaths focus on nothing but your breathing don't rush it. Do it for ten minutes and ask yourself how you feel. You can stop your cortisol response this way.
Levi Lewis
>31B Fucking pog faggot mp
Robert Long
Is there any way you could find a good therapist ?
Reparative therapy is an option. Things like self-help books, etc.
There are so many possibilities to get over this.
Yes your feelings are probably on the horrifying side of things, but these things can be worked through.
Do you have reparative therapy as a goal ?
If you can have reparative therapy as a goal, then you will DEFINITELY get there.
Good luck, and G-d Speed
Love and Hugs from Down-Under
Cameron Cruz
We're on the eve of a complete collapse and you're suicidal? I don't buy it, I think you're a nervous kike. Just waiting for the lights to turn out, see ya soon.
I'm an Iraq vet. 08-09 in Baghdad. Did route clearance. It was pretty chill so I didn't come back with serious PTSD. But things on the side of the road occasionally give me a mini panic attack, and of course I hate fireworks.
When I got out I knew there was the possibility of ending up like you, so I worked my dick off to make it in society. Went to college, got a degree, kept myself in shape, stayed away from drinking too much. Kind of sad seeing all my friends on Facebook slowly devolving as the years go on. I guess you're one of those types. I'd guess you were kind of a loser and a fuck up before the Army and the Army just exacerbated it.
All I can suggest is MDMA assisted psychotherapy, or Iboga (another therapeutic psychedelic). I don't think pharmaceuticals or therapy are really the best route. Seems they end up doing more harm than good, or just don't have an effect at all.
Watch anime instead. Look forward to new seasons. I'd rather spend the rest of my existence working, living alone, and watching anime the just off myself. You'll find something better, eventually, if you try the smallest amount, such as Christ. Realize that life involves suffering and the modern world insulates you from this fact. People will always be there. You're one of them, faggot. Better learn to live with them, and with your trauma and choices. It's your own discipline and choices that fucked up your second wife.
Christian Rivera
Stop the alcohol and use kratom inatead. Dont zone out. Go read some books and get literally learn to code. I hate people too. Learn to apologize and keep your mouth shut. Coding bootcamps are free until you get a job and then you pay them back.
Do Java, C#, or Javascriot using the React framework.
Most of them are irakian , iranian and afghans. They are at my doorstep yelling alahu akbar, demand entrance to my country. Apologize for the fucking mess you created vet.
You past your due date, motherfucker! Pull the trigger and stop being such a whining cunt. Every American soldier who put his feet on a Muslim land should die shocking a fat circumcised hairy stinky kike cock
why dont you suit up you fucking bitch?god damn i can almost see what kind of a faggot you must be.
Matthew Morgan
Get in touch with your unit. Go work the land. Work untill you're so tired you cannot stay awake. Set a goal. Ignore trolls of Yas Forums. Your problem is your dead ass job witch is not fullfilling. Not the time you did overseas.
I know that feel or know people that are as bad off as you. We have lost 5 to suicide out of my platoon alone. Hang in there, if anything because we will be needed for boogaloo. Its inevitable at this point.
Leo Lewis
Are we talking Power rangers with the white/green ranger or are we talking about all the other shitty versions?
Logan Sanchez
God damn used to work overnights at Walmart I would probably rather have people shooting at me
Thomas Torres
You glow too, nigger. Psalms 137:9 Happy shall he be, that taketh and dasheth thy little ones against the stones.
>You don't know what it is like to zone out while watching Power Rangers on Netflix at 3AM thinking about the buddies you had in Iraq calling you home... I'd think about making some mashed potatoes and grab a Jolly Rancher from a jar on my fridge.
Yea all my buddies who went hard into the pharma route or relying on psychotherapy are fucked. I went the no alcohol... no Drugs... Just plain old fresh air and exercise route.
I also do a yoga designed for vets once a week. It's stress positions and focused breathing keeps me centered and feeling up lifted.
It's sad to see such capable men destroyed by the soulless existence of society. Crying for help on pol... It's sad to see someone this isolated.
Nathan Cooper
OP if youve no intent on fixing your career then pick up something on the side to keep from going insane. Comp shooting, amateur detective work, whatever keeps you from going nuts
Sorry user. Life is tough. Listen to the Bible on tape and go from there. It saved me from my darkest hour. But that's me. I still drink like a fish but putting my faith in a higher power helped. Also coast to coast helps and Alex Jones ;) Hang in there bud.
