1. Your country

Biomedical research
I'm perfectly willing to relocate, might apply in the US actually, public research is a fucking joke here.
But I'm usually too autistic to apply for things and I get a mental block everytime I try to look for a job

My gf, who was literally too good for me in every way, broke up with me because I was a bad boyfriend.
Her
>attractive
>soon to be a doctor
>loving parents
>wealthy background
>socially extraverted
Me
>pretty hideous
>lowly officecuck
>separated parents, dysfunctional family
>literally the poorest a family can be in holland, both parents earned minimum wage throughout my youth
>social outcast

Yet she approached me because she liked me for some reason. It was like an anomaly of the universe, there's nothing good about me but she chose me. Then I blew it by continuously insulting her, demeaning her, ignoring her texts and blocking her number. She's had enough and broke up. It's been a few months so I am mostly over her from a love standpoint but I'm not realizing that I'll never find a girl as good as her. I am gonna have to get an ugly toastie roastie because that's who I deserve. And it's painful to admit.

There's a big market for that in the USA.

Stop questioning yourself dude. She obviously saw something in you. I don't think your relationship with her is salvageable, but you can use it as a turning point for your behavior. Have more confidence in yourself and treat others the way you want to be treated.

Yeah looks like no one knows how to contact him. Still thank you user, I think it helped me to put my feelings into words

I'm afraid I'll always be a loser.

I hope everything turns out okay user.

Yeah but with the upcoming recession and border closures I'm afraid things are gonna be even more complicate

What do you think a "loser" is?

You need to build up some self esteem dude. First of all never compare yourself to others. You are your own person. Secondly, find some ways to boost your self esteem. Do you have any hobbies? Maybe a skill you'd like to learn?

like nothing
I don't have a job with high paying wage

That's true. Maybe you can try to find research outfits that have a headquarters in the US and once everything dies down you can possibly transfer. This won't last forever mon ami, trust me. French immigrants tend to do very well in the USA, and in a market like biomedicine, you have the world at your fingertips.

As cliche as it sounds, you need to develop an in-demand skill. If you have a skill that most people do not, you can profit from it and earn good wages.

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I hate rich people on this country. Every day I hate them more. I don't even want to have money and be like them. I want to escape this. Go live in Germany or something, at least rich people there aren't such assholes because they're not that much better off than the rest of the country.

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We'll see how it goes, I'll try to apply when US universities reopen nonetheless.
Thanks for the kind words

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Well this Bolsonaro guy activated self destruction mode and I have no idea what's going to happen to this shithole

i have masturbated several times to that mexican trap with the impossible hips

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kv, every girl i care about friendzones me

some user's grandma caught corona and he is helpless and powerless

Bonne chance my friend. Best of luck to you.

Don't worry yourself too much over politics user. Anything within your control, keep it in check. Anything not in your control, prepare yourself the best you can.

To each their own.

Make your intentions known at the very beginning. The "friend zone" is where beta feelings go to die. Either get involved romantically or don't get involved at all. Do not let yourself be strung around on a leash by someone who doesn't reciprocate feelings.

I want to cook and eat some chicken wings but I also want to practice piano

It's a shame but there isn't much you can do. Just hope they get the best care available.

I know that feel. Except I left school when I was like 12 years old, spent most of my youth in psychiatric wards, never got a degree or anything and obviously no real job either. I used to have friends, close friends even, but I broke off all contact before going down the social hermit route. So here I am. No job, education or friends. I do have a criminal record though, lol. And a very supportive family. But the last few years of isolation really fucked my brain up for good.

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Practice first, then reward yourself with some chicken wings.

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I really like my cat, but the way their favorite food smells makes me want to throw up.

Thanks bro, I've been trying to build that mindset for a while but it's been hard this year

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Don't be so hard on yourself. There's something out there for everyone. It's good your family is supportive. Maybe see if your family will help you get put in the right direction. Do you exercise on a regular basis and eat a good diet? Little things like that can massively boost confidence. Try to find steady employment. I knew a guy like you who dropped out of school. He does pretty well working with a construction company doing flooring and tiles.

Keep up the positivity. You're gonna do great.

I'm not good with existential stuff, but it sounds like you could seek solace in some fantasy novels.

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I wish I was single again. I have no connection with my gf, I don't find her interesting or fun to talk to. She always talks about marriage, but I can barely stand a week with her. It's even worse since the lockdown since all we do is talk, our conversations are so boring.
I really just enjoyed her for the sex, but that's not enough to build a relationship on, but I'm too pussy to breakup with her rn

23andme doesn't ship their ancestry and health package to estonia so now i need to figure out how to get to finland through this corona bullshit

You need to go ahead and end it. Right now you're doing nothing but wasting your time and hers.